The night before New Years Eve

Twas the night before New Years Eve...oops that's night b4 Christmas. Sorry. Christmas has come and gone. Now one more holiday to celebrate and then everything will be back to normal. No more bringing food to work, no more holidays to take off with more days to go along with it to enjoy time with friends and family. It just comes and goes so fast. I am off for a few days and I am going to enjoy my time off. Today was a lazy day. Got ready when I felt like it. Went and used my Victoria's Secret gift card my youngest daughter Margaret gave me. Love that store! Just don't get to go often at all.

Went to fill up the water tank for the horses, Darren was there, and just couldn't hold it back anymore my feelings about the divorce being final. I don't know why I even let myself get upset talking to him about it cause it's always the same response I get from him. Hardly none. Hard to believe at my age, and already gone through heartache before years past, that this would affect me as it has. My heart is broken. I actually feel like it has been ripped in two. I feel like he didn't love me enough and I didn't matter enough for him to do whatever it took to stay together. Maybe he doesn't. And I will grow soon to accept this, and I am going on with my life everyday. It does seem to get better daily, just at times I have my moments. Especially when I go over there and see he's home.