To have been a better person.. I wish

I have raised should say 6 children. 3 of my own, 3 step children. I am faced everyday of questioning myself how I could have led some of them down the wrong path. What should I have done and what could I have done differently. I look back and see mistakes I made with actions, choices, and decisions. Failed relationships, failed marriages. Putting myself first sometimes when I should have always put them first. Putting material wants, not needs, in front of asking myself, do I really NEED this? Being hardheaded and stubborn sure didn't help things alot either. Being older, I know I am looking back and seeing how I failed at things. How I could have handled things differently and better. The way I look at things more now though are how my weaknesses and failings have affected my children. How certain one's of my children can be confused with life and making mistakes that they should know better of and just acting like there are no consequences of choices. That's not something I taught or showed by example. Somehow though along the way, I failed in making that relization I fear. I worry, I cry. I am scared. What will become of the little person that I raised and loved so much, but yet now don't ever know what is going on and what is true and not true? I pray to GOD that he watch over this person and please lead her in the right direction before they have to suffer the consequences to much. Oh Lord, give me strength to bear this burden and cope with what is troubling my heart.